When Adele Jones hears the sound of ambulance sirens, her mind is flooded with flashbacks from the worst night of her life.
On June 22 in 2010, Adele was with her mother when she discovered the body of her 13-year-old sister at their flat.
Adele, just 15 at the time, was left with PTSD from the heart-breaking incident.
Sian Jones was found to have died while experimenting "fainting" techniques, an inquest heard.
Every day since has been a battle for Adele and she was plagued with suicidal thoughts until she conceived her first child, which changed her perspective on life, reports Plymouth Live.
Today – on World Suicide Prevention Day – Adele is bravely sharing her own story in the hopes she can help just one person see that there is "light at the end of the tunnel".
"It’s like a broken record in my head," Adele, from Plymouth, Devon, says.
"I got diagnosed with PTSD in November last year, which I thought I had anyway because of flashbacks.
"All the emotions of that night just relive; the smells the senses, everything, it’s like still being there."
Adele explained her "triggers" are the same as those who have fought in war, only hers are the sounds and sights of emergency service vehicles and workers.
"Remembering all of them turning up outside my mum’s flat. It brings back a lot," she said.
The now 24-year-old was diagnosed with depression and anxiety shortly after Sian's death and battled with Anorexia and self-harming.
She said: "I lived with a lot of guilt, even today, what if’s. It’s an ongoing spiral in my head, it’s an ongoing battle.
"I had some suicidal thoughts too, it’s a normal sort of reaction when you go through something like this. I did think 'it should have been me there’, for it to be my sister who was 13 at the time, it was very difficult for me to understand.
"My depression was awful and I was suicidal."
Adele said that Sian was "bullied" at school, which she believes led her to the deterioration of her mental health.
"I thought it wasn’t as bad as what it was and obviously there was a lot more to it than my sister had led on," she said.
"She knew she had family, she had a few friends. But obviously in a situation like that you can’t read minds, you can’t feel how they’re feeling because it’s not what you’re going through.
"It’s a demon inside them that they’re trying to fight for themselves."
Today, Adele says she has "changed" and no longer gets suicidal thoughts.
The mother-of-two said that the birth of her first son, Jayden, seven years ago, was the turning point in her life and encouraged her to pursue her dreams.
Adele is also mum to Oscar, aged three.
She said: "I changed and I don’t get the suicidal thoughts anymore.
"The moment I conceived my eldest son, that’s when my suicidal thoughts stopped and that was me thinking I’ve got something to live for.
"To finally find out that you’re growing a life inside you makes you think hang on a minute, you can now care about yourself because you’ve got someone else to care for now and you’ve got some meaning.
"That’s what my children gave me, my children gave me a meaning in life when I lost everything.
"I decided after I had my son, right I need to go to college, I need to do my GCSEs which I did. I ended up doing an access course and got into university and for me that’s a positive."
Adele is now at university studying criminology, with the hopes of one day becoming a police officer or a solicitor.
Whilst Adele and her family are still "trying to recover from that heartbreak nine years ago" her two sons have given them a light.
"I’m still dealing with it, but because of my children I think that’s given a lot of light for me and my family to see there is something more if you keep fighting" she said.
Adele wants people to know that "you're never alone".
She said: "Even though when you feel alone and the mental health illness makes you feel like you’re alone, you’re not alone.
"If you feel that you’re getting tired, lean on someone. There are people out there that will listen.
"You just have to fight it a little bit and knock on the door and see what happens.
"I go to my corner shop sometimes and I have a yap with the owner for a bit."
Adele said that sharing her thoughts and feelings helps her with her mental health battle and that "bottling" her feelings up just results in exploding with emotion at a later stage.
She said: "Write it down and if you don’t want to talk about it, give it to someone, even if it’s your mum, your dad, an uncle, sibling or even a lecturer or a teacher.
"Just say look can you read this and pass it back to me when you’ve finished reading it. I think that would be the best option other than you know, just don’t bottle it [up], the more you bottle it, the worse the outcome.
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