LITTLE Mix's Leigh-Anne Pinnock broke down in tears as she revealed she'd torture herself by reading racist comments about her on Twitter.
The Little Mix star spoke to Glamour about the abuse she received early on in her career after the band shot to fame on The X Factor.
Leigh-Anne held her hands to her face as she fought back tears in an emotional video, and said: "I’m not going to lie, the first three years of being in the group, I would look for trolls. I would search Leigh-Anne.
"I would look through Twitter and I would search Leigh-Anne from Little Mix, the black girl in Little Mix, I would put these things in my search engines just to see the comments.
"I regret doing that so much but I’m here now and I feel so much stronger and I don’t feel like that anymore and I don’t do that anymore. I don’t look for it. I want to be someone who got through that.
"Now I’m so proud of who I am and it’s such a good feeling."
Though she stopped the cycle of emotional self harm, she admitted it still upsets her when she recalls nasty comments and they make her feel uncertain of herself.
She added: "I get upset because I remember that girl. I’m still going through things now, you’re never 100% certain of yourself. There’s always going to be some things to get me down and get to me.
"I’m so much stronger. I don’t look for those comments anymore, you cannot do it to yourself."
The star also said that she felt 'invisible' in the early days of the pop band.
She said: "I did feel a bit invisible. I don't really know why I felt like that. It took me a while to process it. That is how I interpreted it and how I felt … I'm so proud of my skin now."
The High Wycombe native, who is of Barbadian and Jamaican ancestry, was catapulted into the spotlight on 2011's X Factor when she won the series alongside bandmates Jade Thirlwall, Perrie Edwards and Jesy Nelson.
Little Mix initially auditioned as solo artists before being put together to form the now best-selling group.
They have since enjoyed a successful career with four of their singles, including Wings, Black Magic and Shout Out to My Ex, reaching number one in the UK.
Last year, The Sun revealed that the band had decided to part ways with Simon Cowell's record label Syco amid growing frustrations over the past 12 months during the making of new album LM5.
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