Charlotte Crosby has revealed she ‘couldn't hold a conversation' as a result of suffering pre-natal depression during her pregnancy with daughter Alba Jean.
The Geordie Shore star – who welcomed Alba in October – opened up about feeling down during week 8 and 10 of her pregnancy last year – with her low mood even causing her boyfriend and father of Alba, Jake Anker to leave their home one day.
Charlotte said: “It was a down feeling I’ve never experienced before. It wasn’t just crying, that’s hormonal. Being depressed is like totally going with in yourself – you can’t even speak let alone cry. It’s just a weird, strange feeling.”
She added: “I couldn’t string a sentence together, I couldn’t hold a conversation. My head was not in being around people, being chatty. Jake left one day because he felt like he didn’t want to be around me because I was no company.”
In her new autobiography, Me, Myself and I, the 32 year old wrote: “When I was around eight or nine weeks pregnant, suddenly, out of nowhere, I took a dive.
"I felt so low, so down, there was this dark cloud over me. I had zero energy – I was so tired I couldn’t get off the sofa or speak to anyone. But I was too embarrassed to say I was feeling down.
“I kept thinking, ‘This is meant to be the happiest time of my life – what the hell is wrong with me?’"
Charlotte recalled: "The first day I started feeling like it, Jake was trying to talk to me, and I was huffing and puffing. I was thinking, ‘Why am I being such a bitch?’ I would barely speak to him.
“He told me he remembers that day – he made himself busy and got out of the house because I looked like I didn’t want him to be there with me. He didn’t want to sit there awkwardly.”
Charlotte added that she felt “horrendous”, “listless”, “sad”, and that she “couldn’t stop crying.”
She explained: “After a bit of research, I found out that it could be something called pre-natal depression. Wow, that sounded scary. It sent me into even more of a mad panic.”
Fortunately, Charlotte began to feel like the cloud had lifted at around week 10 of her pregnancy.
She wrote: “It must have been about ten days before the cloud eventually lifted and I started to feel normal again. I think it was just this massive hormone imbalance.
"But I was really scared that it was going to come back when I gave birth and my hormones went through another big change and that it might last even longer."
Charlotte added: "I wasn’t sure if I would be able to cope with that. I didn’t really know what I would do.”
The mum of one previously sweetly exclaimed that being a mum is the "best job".
She said on Steph's Packed Lunch: "I absolutely love it, this is by far the best job I have ever had in my whole entire life – there's no feeling like it."
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