Louise Thompson, who has recently been receiving treatment for health issues following the traumatic birth of her son Leo, has admitted she felt "more safe" in hospital than at home.
The former Made In Chelsea star made the comments on Instagram after reading a post by Nicky Newman – a campaigner who is currently battling incurable cancer and teaching people what early signs of her illness they can look out for.
Nicky told her followers: "For me being in hospital feels safer than being at home."
Reality star, Louise said her openness "really resonated" with her, despite going on to say "it's a pretty shocking place to be mentally".
In a lengthy statement to her 1.4 million followers, Louise said: "I didn’t feel like this AT ALL during my first stint (I felt nothing but fear and total confusion as to where I was, who I was and what was happening to me for a month) but more recently when I spent a week as an inpatient I felt a sense of safety, security and even inner peace.
"Time passed quickly, there wasn’t much I HAD to do, and I didn’t have to look after the little cub. The first time round I couldn’t read, write or watch anything.
"I couldn’t even figure out how to turn on an iPad. Everything was too much. I had one weird moment where I downloaded a bunch of songs from a holiday in Greece back in 2003 as I was coming off my morphine, but that was it."
Louise explained that during her first stay in hospital it had felt as though her "brain had shut off" and it resulted in her starring at "a wall for days on end analysing what it meant to be alive".
Addressing her most recent stint in hospital, Louise admitted it felt more like being "on holiday" and said she could be "fully selfish".
"I had undisturbed sleep for the first time in 8 months. I even did morning stretches. It felt like such a privilege to be able to get up and move. I could be fully selfish and treat myself as No.1.," she said.
"My main mission was to stop severe malnourishment and to build up strength. I could take a moment to listen to my body and understand what was going on, and to make sure I didn’t have any adverse reactions to any of the new substances dripping into my body."
The mum of one also admitted that it can be "very hard to prioritise your own health at home with a young baby" but later stated that her time in hospital had given her a "chance to miss him".
She said: "It doesn’t seem to make sense to try to survive and get better whilst also trying to look after another being. It’s a HUGE mental challenge to say the least…
"I feel pretty confident in saying that it’s harder than most things in the world. It also gave me a chance to miss him which was lovely, and then I really wanted to come home."
Louise ended her statement by touching on what it's been like not "having a fully functioning brain".
She said: "I have to say not having a fully functioning brain is so hard. Sometimes it drives me into a total panic. How can I set a good example when I am not a good example.
"I need to accept that I will get better, slowly slowly catchy monkey as Leo also progresses too.
"We are both like babies growing up and learning how to navigate the world. The only difference is that I have to look after a baby and he doesn’t. Oh to be Leo."
As well as suffering from PSTD follow Leo's birth, Louise has ulcerative colitis, a bowel condition which affects the innermost lining of your large intestine and rectum. Symptoms usually develop over time rather than suddenly, and Louise has been open about how her mental health medication has sometimes impacted her UC.
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