Louise Thompson shared details of her tough day over the weekend as she admitted to 'curling up in a ball of tears' after being given some devastating news.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 32, who has been battling PTSD and both mental and physical health issues since the traumatic birth of her son Leo in 2021, admitted to feeling like the incident has taken her a 'massive leap backwards' in her progress.
Sharing a post to Instagram on Friday, she shared that despite having plans for the day, she received some bad news and felt unable to continue with her planned schedule- returning home to the arms of fiancé Ryan Libbey for emotional support.
Posting a video of her outfit for the day, which consisted of a lace black dress with a faux-fur collared longline coat on top, Louise candidly shared the experience in the post's caption.
She began: "An outfit that I stepped into with great confidence this morning (laid out the night before in a moment of hyper productivity) knowing that I was headed to a hospital appointment at 10.30am shortly followed by an exciting lunch in Holland Park at 12pm.
"Sadly I got some news that I didn’t want to hear and had to do a U turn to go home and cry which is so unlike me, trauma or no trauma. I never just don’t show up. But today I needed to honour my feelings and curl up into a ball of tears in Ryan’s arms. It’s news I probably should have expected but it landed with such a thud."
Admitting that she struggled to 'bury' the information and continue her day, Louise shared that the news made everything that she has been 'burying' recently come to the surface.
She continued: "All of the traumatic incidences that have occurred in my life (and especially those over the past 18 months) raced back through my brain pinging their way into my overactive amygdala, sending me right back into fight or flight. It’s the most uncomfortable feeling. It feels like pure stress. Poison in my head. Clanging alarm bells. More pressure than a singing kettle. I can hardly focus or be around people. Reading and writing I can just about tolerate.
"I tried everything: sitting in the garden, reading, stoking a fire, qigong, vagus nerve ear massages, talking, crying, grounding. I think the tears and sadness triggered a strange response in my body. Feelings don’t seem to crescendo and diminish like normal. Nothing feels that normal anymore. Actually that’s a lie. A lot is normal but in these moments I can’t remember that."
Looking to her followers for some reassurance, the former reality star explained that she has taken steps forward but an even larger one backwards, leaving her in a struggling position.
She added: "I know it seems like I’m doing so well, and maybe I am, but in all honesty I’ve had a rough time since therapy on Friday. I re-enacted the first operation in a lot of detail with my therapist and it’s freaked my brain out a bit.
"Can someone reassure me that things will get better again. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve played the ‘everything passes, nothing is forever’ mantra in my head."
During the little one’s birth, both Louise and Leo were extremely unwell, with medics fearing the pair may even die during the traumatic birth.
Thankfully both survived the ordeal, with Leo receiving specialist care in the NICU for several weeks before he was healthy enough to come home.
However, Louise has suffered a plethora of physical issues in the aftermath of the ordeal, including mental struggles such as PTSD and post-natal depression.
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